ive been meaning to write this entry for a while but havent gotten the time to type it up. gonna give myself a limit. 9 minutes of typing and then i'll stop.
so, my grade is really...irresponsible and uninterested in everything. all they do is fool around every day and skip classes like it's nothing. then, they ask people that arent skipping to cover up for them. half of our entire gr12 band class skipped today and pretended as if they were on a field trip... which they weren't. if i remember correctly, two weeks ago, our second chair flutist said "you can skip class, but not band". something like that, on twitter. yet, she skips class. and morning rehearsal. seriously. and she's also a member of music council. aren't they supposed to be advocating music and enthusiasm? i dont quite get it.
now, i kind of understand why they would wanna skip class. our band teacher talks forEVER and he's pretty...ugh sometimes. no. most of the time. he marks people very unfairly for playing tests. so, our most recent test went like this. someone played and messed up on the first or second bar. our teacher says "okay stop. you dont know what youre doing. get a retry later. you have... *counts* 4/25 on this study so far." he's just really unfair. i'm trying to go on a tangent...but okay. so i did my retest today (i got 80% on my first try which is 20% less than what i usually get) and HE LOOKED UP AT ME IN THE MIDDLE OF MY TEST. i suddenly got distracted and forgot about a forte in this bar... i lost 1.5 marks because of that =___________= sadness. sobs. forever.
anyway, 3 more minutes of ranting leggo... okay, so i feel like there are so many great people in my grade as well. and some people are good leaders and some aren't. but some people are just great. i feel as if the "popular" people that are the current leaders have to step it up and act more like their age and take responsibility while i also think the less "popular" people should show off more often and take the initiative to do important things. they have the skill but not the experience since they've overshadowed by the popular people more.
there's one more thing i really need to write down... people judging others. i know this doesnt really have to do with my journal topic but.....okay im just super pissed. gotta let it go. during band camp, i realized some things.
1. people judge others like crazy
2. every year, the amount of charismatic people decrease
3. people tell so many white lies
now, the first one... we had games during band camp and we usually played them with our "game groups". my group consisted of the "unpopular" people in band and i'm included in that i suppose. when one of our members went to do a task for a game in front of the audience, he did this gorilla stunt and it was hilarious, but not many people laughed. i noticed one of the gr11 boys making a disgusted face at him and i just felt like... people judge each other too much. this gr11 guy and i are kind of close and i know him pretty well. he has an intense superiority complex and looks down on everyone. i know not everyone is as arrogant as him, but a lot of people are still as bad.
okay moving on because i dont have enough time. giving myself two more minutes to type. so, when i was in gr9, i met the most enthusiastic, friendliest, funnest "senpai"s in band. in gr10, i met even more because the new seniors talked to me. in gr11, still a few were left but great. and now...... who's the cool senpai that the little niners look up to? i can't name anyone in my grade that would be a good role model for the younger ones because they're either:
- unsocial and awkward, like me and some people
- judgmental and irresponsible, like everyone else
i met a few people during my gr10 year named N, R, A, and G that were MY senpais. N is probably the most charismatic one out of all of them and she really made our trips fun, since we were also in chamber music together. but in my grade, the gr12s ditch class and rehearsals. -.-
anyway, moving on once again..yeah no im at my limit. bye